July 2011
1 post
25 days sober(ish)
booooooooooooom!
haven’t drank for 25 days anyway!
starting a new diary type blog, link to follow :)
June 2011
4 posts
haven't drank for 13 days!
longest i’ve gone without in over 2 years + it isn’t bothering me one bit :)
being dumped
is shit; especially when it comes out of nowhere. i can’t decide if the last 6 weeks have been a complete waste of time or not. i haven’t felt this down in such a long time.
May 2011
9 posts
mood swings
are doing my fucking head in!
life
has improved significantly. after a rough start to last week had a decent weekend + words cannot even begin to describe how excited i am for this weekend! quitting sainsburys is probably one of the best decisions i’ve made, fuck working 50 hours a week. also got my first driving lesson this afternoon + i’m shitting it…
haven't even
been in a relationship for a month, i’m already having doubts + really don’t think i’m cut out for this shit :(
i don’t get how when you finally get what you want + everything is going right that it’s never enough. i’m unhappier now than i have been for a while…what am i going to do with my life!?
woke up this morning
to two of my friend deans mates in my bed. have no recollection of the second half of the night nevermind getting home or why they stayed. my life is silly.
April 2011
3 posts
come to the conclusion
i take way too many drugs. this year is just one huge blur, the trip i had on sunday was possibly the weirdest thing i’ve ever experienced.
blah blah blah
today is not a good day, my life is a disaster
March 2011
9 posts
this weekend
has to be the most casual weekend i’ve ever had. a few drinks at a mates on friday turned into a 48 hour bender in london. 6 hours from home in the middle of a protest with over 300,000 other people. missing our coach home + staying in the dodgiest hotel ever: ‘breakfast in the basement’, ‘you can sleep in that bed + that bed but not that one because it’s...
come to the conclusion
that all i do is work, drink, sleep + shop. i don’t watch tv, i’m not big on music or films + i have no hobbies. i work hard for my money which i then spend on going to the pub 5 days week, getting in states + excessive amounts of clothing/shoes/bags/underwear i don’t need. i barely sleep; i get at most 6 hours a night + thursday to saturday more like 6 hours total. so...
wish
i knew what i wanted out of life. so fucking fed up and pissed off.
can't
believe i need to find a new job, last week was awful but i’ve had a good weekend + things are starting to look up :)
:)
had such a good day! just got to see where things go from here i guess…
February 2011
6 posts
after
dieting for a month + losing over a stone fully fucked up in the last week; put 6 pounds back on. i blame being off work + drinking everyday. my fresh start went well ;)
fuck it!
This
Last week has been amazing!
can't
believe i’ve fucked things up so much with my family. i had no idea i’d hurt them so much. my mum told me yesterday that although she loves me she doesn’t like me, the person i am or the decisions i’ve made. my 17 year old sister also told me she had to have counselling just before christmas because she didn’t want to come home because of me. she also said she tells...
January 2011
4 posts
i don't
like liking people; emotion’s are shit.
return of
extreme dieting
December 2010
5 posts
everything
seems to be going to shit again, on the plus side leeds and set your goals were amazing!
ketamine
November 2010
1 post
August 2010
4 posts
today
is such a shit fucking day.
Happiest
i’ve been in a long, long time :)
June 2010
2 posts
11 days without drinking
world record for me
April 2010
1 post
i feel
like i’m going insane
March 2010
1 post
Today
I appreciate life